I am may be a pastor, but underneath the robe I am a real person. As in I make mistakes, I desire things, I experience all sorts of emotions, and even ask questions about my faith and God. From the time I began thinking about the pastor I wanted to be, I have always said I wanted to be one that was real and authentic. Even from the pulpit I confess more than I should, but I want everyone to know I am just like them. I struggle, I sin, I screw up at living like Christ; however, I never stop trying to live for God. For those that do not know me, I ask that you not judge me because you have never lived my life or walked in my shoes. One of my biggest struggles I have had in my life is not being comfortable in my own skin. Basically meaning, I have always wanted to have myself surrounded by people because the thoughts that run through my mind can constantly be defining and crippling. I have always struggled with self-worth and confidence because I have always been overweight. It only takes being called names a few times before you start believing the lies- that is another topic for another day. God has put on my heart to share my struggles with loneliness. Even in the midst of being surrounded by people, I can feel lonely. Take yesterday as an example: I came home from work and my boys weren't with me, I had no one to go hang out with or talk to. For a minute my emotions got the best of me and I began to cry and cry out to God to fill every empty place in my heart. Maybe you don't struggle with loneliness but I can guarantee you know someone who does. For those that do struggle with loneliness, please know that you are NOT alone! First of all, many people share your struggle. I honestly believe that social media, even though intended to help us connected, has in many ways disconnected us more. People would rather have dialogue over the internet than a face to face conversation. My friends, the struggle is REAL! Next and most importantly, GOD IS WITH YOU! Even as I cried for that brief moment yesterday, I could feel God's presence with me. I knew he knew my struggle and I was not alone. People will disappoint us and let us down, but God NEVER will. This Sunday we will be looking at Psalm 121 and Proverbs 3:5-6. Where does our help come from? It wont come from social media, other people, possessions, or jobs.. but rather from God. Our Heavenly God has everyone of our details. It’s ok to tell God how we feel! Join us this Sunday at 11 for worship.
Psalm 121 The Message (MSG)A Pilgrim Song
1-2 "I look up to the mountains; does my strength come from mountains? No, my strength comes from God, who made heaven, and earth, and mountains.
3-4 He won’t let you stumble, your Guardian God won’t fall asleep. Not on your life! Israel’s Guardian will never doze or sleep.
5-6 God’s your Guardian; right at your side to protect you—
Shielding you from sunstroke, sheltering you from moonstrok
7-8 God guards you from every evil, he guards your very life.
He guards you when you leave and when you returns, he guards you now, he guards you always"
Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track."
Love in Christ,